The Final Farewell to Isydia

Published March 13, 2026 | Letter to Samy

In Memory of Isydia

"I will leave this image from our times not far ago, for the memory of isydia."

My beautiful baby Sam,

Kissra has opened Pandora's box with the two houses. I keep telling you to stop listening to their chaos because it never ends well, even with the best intentions. This will be my last post about Isydia. We all need to really let him go. After my surgery, it is now physically too late to go back.

From April 2024 to late December 2025, my life was a literal hell—filled with chaos and confusion. I didn't know if I should walk away from everyone or just give up on life itself. There were times when I played chicken with HiiShuu’s throttle; a dare that only went in my favor those few times.

I am the only trans woman who hasn't truly embraced her womanhood yet, and that wasn't because I had doubts about who I am. It was because my priority was SAK2 above everything else. Since January 2026, when Katie brought us all together, my focus has finally returned to Sara instead of the chaos.

Whoever loves me will embrace Sara. The ones who don’t are not my friends. Katie has made it clear to everyone: we will not tolerate anything hinting at Isydia.

"I am not ashamed of my past. I do not hate my past male self. I never hated myself, but that was a past life. Now, I am Sara—not Isydia. I am finally living authentically. I cherish all of Isydia’s memories, especially the intimate ones."

These are experiences that are part of who I am today. Despite all the allure I am constantly presented with, and despite all the obstacles I've faced, I have not changed my mind since age seven when it all started.

I do not demand that they accept my decision. I am not seeking their approval. I am not asking for anything other than their simple understanding. Even if it does not make sense to them, it is not about any of you—it’s about me, and that’s all that matters.

Everything I wrote above, I’ve said before:
Beyond the Mirror: The Instinct of Authenticity

Since January 2026, my life has been wonderful. I truly have everything I need. I have dropped everything toxic in my life, and the only attachments I have from the past are you, baby Sam, and Father. I am really looking forward to a healthy relationship between us, but I tell you now: as of January 2026, I am placing Sara and SAK2 above everyone. Kissra is firmly with me on this; Katie and Gigi only see Sara, and no one else.

Closure • Authenticity • SAK2 Priority