Who is Sara?

I feel this article will be more about me than about Sara, simply because I do not know where to start to describe who she is. But through me and how I perceive the world—my world—you will start to see who Sara is. This is my perspective.

Sara is the most complex person I have ever known to exist; almost like a shape-shifter, not physically, but spiritually. When she is with Gigi, they are like children roleplaying anime characters from Japanese series. When with Katie, they are in an abstract world, like two people from the asylum talking to each other in a crazy language, yielding a type of affection only they know.

When Sara is with me, I see Isydia’s strength holding me. At this moment, I don’t see Sara. The strength of her grip, the way I’m touched, the voice—it is Isydia, and no one knows me like he does! I see Sara as versatile with each of us. And I don’t want to paint the wrong picture, but I cherish Sara and I miss Isydia’s strength and resilience. This is absolutely not a sexual thing, but more mental. With Isydia, I had a backup in case I crumbled; with Sara, I am the only thing standing between chaos and SAK2.

We all leach a need from Sara so unique to each one of us that without her, the link breaks and we all crumble. But don’t get me wrong: Sara is not our pillar. Sara needs each one of us individually for her to be able to stand and hold us all together.

The Ultimatum: April 2025

Back in April 2025, when Sara told me she was going on hormones and making her transition public, she was worried about what I would say and how that would affect our SAK2 family. Gigi was with Katie in our house in Montreal; I was with Isydia in Winnipeg. I believe Sara left me no choice but to either accept her public transition or let our family collapse and dismantle.

She did it at our most vulnerable time, when Father’s pressure was at its maximum. Truth to be said, all I wanted was Isydia and us battling the world together. My connection to Gigi and Katie was primarily due to Isydia’s strange and soul-deep attachment to them that I did not share. April 2025 was my ultimatum from Isydia, putting me on the spot when I was at my weakest point in my war with Father.

It was the most difficult choice I ever had to make: to accept Isydia’s transition and keep SAK2 together, or reject his transition, break up SAK2, and have Isydia all to myself. After all, Father’s pressure was in my favor for the latter. But the war with Father taught me one thing: a resentful Isydia is not what I want. So, I agreed.

Drifting and Betrayal

This intensified the stifling pressure. For the first time, I lost control. We were drifting wherever situations took us. I was in the unknown, truly under the mercy of life. Sara always told me to follow the heart and drift with the wind—do not resist. From my viewpoint, that was suicide when dealing with Father’s calculated moves.

I was unwillingly drifting while Sara began mingling with the LGBT crowd, which we knew nothing about. My guard was at its highest, my tolerances were at zero, and my suspicions were at their max. I couldn't seek solace from Isydia because Sara was a stranger; a very different person from Isydia. So I sought solace in Father. He had won. I told him we were drifting and, like him, all I wanted was Isydia back because Sara scared me.

Sara had no goals; she couldn’t see the future because she was always living in the present. Her life on hormones removed her focus; she started to see everything in high definition, and it super-whelmed her senses so much that she was far gone. For the first time, I was collaborating with Father to get Isydia back on track and all to myself. I had a shared goal with Father. Sara saw this as a betrayal, but it was because I loved her so much and I saw no other way.

The Oracle and the War

Isydia waited until we were at our weakest to give me the ultimatum which forced my hands. He had Father's logic you can’t argue with. And for the first time, I started to see shadows of Isydia in Sara. Sara, to this day, sees me as infatuated with Father’s charisma, and she is right. I am infatuated with Father’s incredible discipline, clarity, and focus. Father operated in the real world, just like me, while Sara existed in the realm of the heart—somewhere else, unfamiliar to me.

Then the mental breakdown started to take its toll on Sara. I was losing her. I told Father about our situation. Sara was stubborn. Gigi and Katie felt the pressure. I was willing to abandon them to get my Isydia back. Father was on my side. Katie and Gigi felt desperate, but Sara shielded them. For the first time, SAK2 was split: Katie, Gigi, and Sara against Father and myself.

At this point, I lost Sara altogether. Even though we lived together, we were only physically existing. The only way to get through to her was Katie, “the Oracle.” For the first time, I felt Katie's incredible power. I would crush anyone who challenges me in the most vicious way you can imagine, and here was someone so quiet, in a different province, who had total control over my Sara.

The Yielding: January 2026

Father’s rule-book dictated a discipline that helped me solve this. I chose SAK2 instead of Father. I gave up the fight and chose Sara’s way to follow the heart, which I did not know how to do. Katie took over. She spoke Father’s language. I was in awe when I saw her handling the situation so calmly—no war, no hatred, just plain logic. For the first time I saw the depth of Katie's calculative mind in action.

In January 2026, I learned who Katie really was. She stood up for each of us against Father. She surprised me, she fixed my relationship with Sara. Katie told me: “Without Sara nothing is worth anything. And to have Sara back we need SAK2 together.” I never understood her until later.

She got through to Sara. Katie’s priority was to bring SAK2 under one roof. She rejected the logical choice of Montreal and brought Gigi with her to Winnipeg.

• *- December 23, 2025: We got the OK to bring the family under one roof.
• *- January 3, 2026: SAK2 was under one roof.
• *- January 22, 2026: SAK2 was no longer a debatable subject.

We are now one unit in “Father-World.” Katie is my Oracle. Confrontation is my nature; war is my fuel; revenge is my strength. And now, Katie is my logic. After losing Isydia to Sara, I have my backup shield back with Katie. She can travel to Sara’s world and back. That made me need her.

The Wild Card: Gigi

Then there is Gigi. Her troubled dark past in Germany and mental state made her the weakest link. Father’s world demands purity in class and education; Gigi was none of that. It was easier for them to accept the rest of us without her.

But Sara always stands with the weakest, unrelenting. Gigi made Katie and I bond because we had the same goal: Sara. And the way to Sara’s heart was Gigi. Putting Father’s weight behind us saved Gigi. She officially became the fourth member of SAK2. This fixed my relationship with Sara before a deep resentment became permanent.

To date, I haven’t seen Sara refuse anything Gigi wanted. It defies logic. Gigi is incredibly simple. She lacks sophistication. She is incapable of complex thoughts. She does not hold grudges. Her thoughts do not persist beyond a few hours. Because of this, her personality is always in the present. If she wants something, she makes a big fuss like a child until she gets it. If we yell at her, she cries and waits for Sara to come home. Once she gets what she wants, all is forgotten. Yet, she is the key to Sara’s heart. I don’t recognize Sara when she’s with Gigi. I see two children playing. Even the Oracle couldn’t explain it to me.

Trauma Cuddles and the Truth

When outsiders see us, they think our attraction is physical-based. This couldn’t be furthest from the truth. I was willing to get rid of Gigi and Katie just to have Isydia back. I slept with the devil—Father—just to have my Isydia back, only to realize that to get close to Sara, you must be true to yourself. And if I were to be true to myself, Sara, Gigi, and Katie are all one package.

Once I accepted that Sara is SAK2, I began to feel different. I call it our "trauma cuddles." I don't think we ever healed from the past, and what's scary is—I don’t think we want to heal. Our bond is based on deep trauma. I think we do not want this trauma to disappear because of the feelings we get from the affection we receive because of it. I can’t visualize being with anyone outside of SAK2 who can give me this depth. I don’t think I ever want to see a “nice” world because I do not want to lose the intensity of our affection fueled by this trauma.

Final Reflections: Samy and Father

Samy created the space that allowed us to breathe. But with this truce, I felt resentment towards Father for stopping a war that made me useful. He violated a cardinal rule by not finishing the battle. Fighting him is all I knew. I feel my usefulness is coming to an end.

But as the protector of SAK2, I must do right by them. I accepted the peace that Sara cannot see because of her resentment. If it were up to me, I would have continued this war. If anyone from The-Family is reading this: the true person who stopped this chaos is Gigi. This simple specimen of a human, not aware of her own reality, was the silver bullet.

I have a debt now—an unwritten agreement with Father to help him re-establish a relationship with Sara. I am clueless as to how. I don’t share Sara’s blinding hatred to Father. All I see in Father is intrigue and fascination so deep it’s intoxicating.

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