Samy: The SAK2 Blueprint

Samy, if there were a button each of us could press to have the relationship we truly wanted—not the one forged by necessity—this is what it would look like.

Angie (Gigi): The Pure Escape

Kissra and Katie describe Gigi as a "simple specimen of a human who lacks sophistication." They don’t see her as a threat; they feel zero jealousy toward her.

Gigi retreats into her own world to survive her trauma. Does that remind you of someone? Do you remember Mr. Seven? I will forgive Father only when I forget Mr. Seven. I see myself in Gigi vividly. I wish I had my own "Sara" back then to kiss my tears away. I tell you now: I would leave Kissra and Katie without a second thought, but I will never, ever give up on Gigi.

Gigi’s heart is possessive. She monitors my life because she wants to protect me. If she senses a threat, she runs to Kissra to force me in a different direction. Her heart is the only one not contaminated by ego or hidden agendas. When she laughs, it is pure joy. Sometimes I hate the world of Kissra and Katie because it is filled with the responsibilities of Father’s chaos. I always want to be in Gigi’s world, away from it all.

If Gigi had a button to press, she would keep SAK2 together simply because she thinks it’s what I want. That is the purity of her soul. No deciphering, no complexity—just living with the people you love away from the icky world.

Father throws money at every problem. It didn’t work with me. I think I am the only problem his ego couldn't "solve," and it keeps him awake at night. Gigi is the penalty Father has to pay for what he did; she is his karma. She is the total opposite of your world, Samy. If you want me in your world, you have to find a place for her, too. Now can you see why this is unfixable? I have spared you all; I am in this world with the people I love. It’s time to move on and leave the ugliness behind.

Kissra: The Warrior’s Debt

If Kissra had a wish, her first choice would be to reverse time to college—to play house with me in your world and never experience the ugliness. Her second choice would be for me to go back to your world right now alone with her. Her third choice, staying here, is SAK2 and nothing else.

Kissra does not belong in my world, but she refuses to go back to yours without me. She isn't jealous of Katie because she has something Katie will never have: Father. Father’s world has accepted Kissra; she is the only one he will speak to. She respects Katie’s logic because Katie never took advantage of her during Father’s last move. Kissra moves on action, not performance, and Katie has earned her trust.

Kissra is a "mother hen" who protects the weak. She sees Gigi’s reliance on her as an unbreakable bond. If an outsider upsets Gigi, Kissra comes down on them with out-of-proportion violence. When I don’t listen to Kissra, she lets Gigi do the dirty work. Gigi will literally physically force me to comply if she thinks my safety is threatened—and I find that beautiful.

Personally, I think Kissra’s sadistic fascination with confrontation is what dragged our conflict out. Her restless spirit wanted to prove itself to Father by being a formidable adversary. She enjoyed the legal chaos; it was her way of saying, "I am not just a person; I am Kissra."

Katie: The Oracle’s Logic

Katie is the only one who truly understands the mechanics of our house. Her only "loose nut" is Kissra. Since Gigi and I refuse to return to Father’s world, Katie shifts all her focus to Kissra. They are always together, handling responsibilities. Katie is genuine and honest with Kissra, and Kissra respects her for it. Kissra now picks Katie over me when it comes to major decisions.

If Katie had her wish, she would choose SAK2. She is a lesbian in love with our collective personalities. She is fragile, private, and needs a warrior like Kissra to fight her battles in the real world. It just so happens that Kissra loves the war. They are the most intimate with each other—the masculine-feminine warrior Kissra and the gentle, submissive Katie.

Katie finds Gigi annoying sometimes because she cannot step down to Gigi’s level of simplicity, but she cares for her as family. As for me, I am Katie’s power source. Her deep mind becomes unstable without the specific depth I provide. We communicate on a level that exists outside the domain of the others. She isn't jealous of Kissra because she knows our reality is one no one else can attain. She is the glue; she balances Father’s chaos with my wish to detach.

Summary of the SAK2 Ecosystem

• Gigi: Sees me as her soulmate, Kissra as her parent/protector, and Katie as the "God" of the family. She wants us together and away from the "icky" world.
• Katie: Sees me as the adhesive for the ecosystem. She tolerates Gigi for the sake of the unit and depends on Kissra to handle the outside world. She depends on me to keep her mind grounded.
• Kissra: Sees me as the reason for the chaos she craves and her connection to Father’s world. Her love is a debt she owes to ensure I thrive, even if she can't let go of Isydia.
• Sara: I am done with your world, Samy. I want to live out the rest of my life in SAK2. I want the stifling to stop. I want to face life "organically." If Father wants to give me anything, let it be that.